I am a truth seeker. I have a deep need to be told what is really happening, what has happened, the truth. I don't mind if it hurts, or I don't like it, or it's different to what I believed - but I need it. Living with someone for so long where honesty was a hugely difficult accomplishment, has taken its toll on how I trust people. Living with someone for nearly seven years and their disloyalties, infidelities and general need to tell 'stories' rather than truth, has caused damage that I now have to deal with and work through.
While taking responsibility for working through this damage so as not to inflict insecurites on to other people, do other people have a duty to learn how to be honest? Am I asking to much of people for them to just be honest? I don't want 'protecting' through un-truths. I don't want 'stories'. Is this to demanding? Am I asking for something that essentially most people can't give? Is it fair to want it just because I need it? Can I be cross with friends when I don't get it? Will I ever be able to trust in a relationship again? Am I being naive in thinking that truth is something that is wanted by all?
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